If someone told me I'd be releasing a book this year, I wouldn't have believed them. When I left my agent in February, all I felt was rejection and sadness. I really didn't know what to do. What to think. I honestly thought my book was dead. I moped around the house for a few days, tried to work on other things, but my book kept calling to me.
And I knew it wasn't over. Somehow, that little spark of hope made me submit to smaller publishers. I didn't think anything would happen, but I thought "at least I tried". Three days later I had interest and a week after that, a book contract for 2 books.
I'm still in shock. I've seen my book on Amazon, I have the e-book version on my Kindle. My paperbacks are on their way to my house. You'd think I'd be shouting my happiness to the rooftops by now. But, no. It's so surreal. When I think about how much I went through to get to this point, I'm so humbled. Who knows if I'll ever be able to sell another book. Who knows if I'll get another agent someday. For now, I need to stop worrying about that and focus on what I have accomplished so far. And once my book has been out into the world and people love/hate it, I can think more about my career and set another goal. I can think about what I really want to do next.
I hope at least one of you reads this and realizes you don't have to give up on your dream. Even if you go through a few books and no agent wants it. There is a story inside of you that will eventually get you there. Keep moving forward, keep writing more books, and someday, you can tell your own story. Yes, I'm a sap and no I don't care. :)
Stay tuned for Wednesday. My book will be available on Kindle! And I may have a giveaway or two that day. ;)