Guess what? My book comes out in 2 1/2 weeks. Can we say crazy? I'm really so excited, but so, so nervous.
I wanted to talk a little about what it's like to actually have a book come out. I'm not quite there yet, but honestly I've felt so many emotions over the past few weeks. Both good and bad. Why don't we start with the good?
*Having a book out to the public is going to be awesome. It means people will actually be reading it. Which terrifies me, really, but it also means I fulfilled a dream! And when I look back at all the work I went through to get to this place, it feels good. I accomplished something a lot of people aren't able to. I'm proud of myself for hanging on enough to get this far.
*People might actually like my characters and pick up my next books. I'm crossing my fingers. :)
*I'll have a real book to hold in my hands. I don't think anything could compare to this moment. I ordered my books over the weekend and they should be here soon. I have goosebumps just thinking about it.
*People might enjoy the story. It's different and fun, and hopefully they'll be left wanting more.
Now, the bad. Oh, the bad.
*People might hate it.
I've thought about this happening ever since I started querying my book. You think I'd be used to rejection from querying, but no. I know people are going to trash my writing. I know some of them won't connect with my characters and possibly hate them. It makes me sad, but honestly, it's going to happen. And it's okay. I chose this career path and everything that comes with it. I'll hopefully have some people like my book, so it will balance the bad out. Maybe.
*Ranting reviews. We've all seen them on Goodreads. The ones where reviewers pick out every single thing wrong with the book, using quotes and everything. I respect reviewers, I really do. How else do we get our books out there? I know it will hurt if I read some of them though. I may stay away from any and all reviews until my book has been out for a while. I can take criticism, but not rudeness. Know what I mean?
*What if I can't get anything else published? I do have a sequel coming out next year, but what if I can't write anything else good enough to attract an agent or editor? That thought is always swimming around in my mind. No matter how many ideas I get.
What it all comes down to, is that I'm very happy where I'm at right now. I'm nervous, scared, excited, you name it. And that's normal I think. I'm sure it never goes away either. So, bring it on, I say. I wrote a book and loved it so much that I never gave up on it until someone else loved it too. And I think that's good enough for me. :)
Also, go enter to win my book on Goodreads! The contest goes until August 20th. ;) Hopefully that's the right link ...